Today

Today I choose life by living in today. I used to be a person that wanted to revel in the memories of yesterday, regrets, and the what ifs? However staying in that frame of mind causes one to be left behind missing out on the treasures of today because how can you see whats in front of you if your head is turned backwards trying to imitate an owl stretching necks to distorted proportions.
Life is a journey and I intend to live it as such. When one is taking a tour around the world it is very rare that they turn around and revisit a place that they didnt particularly enjoy. And why revisit places when there are so many more places to see. On my journey of life i want to continue to move forward. Yes, I am human and like many have experienced disappointments. There is no blame to be placed on disappointments. Disappointments are merely an opportunity to get a look at another part of yourself, reflect and learn. That is the only way a person is able to get to their best self.
I believe now I am a champion. I am constantly winning in my life daily. overcoming small obstacles to attain my goals and even though I had my life mapped out there is only one map maker of lives and that is the creator. As with any map I am always given two forks in roads after i reach a certain point in my destination and until now I have always chosen the side of the road that seemed easier out of fear of the unknown. Today I understand that. I also understand I will continuously be given this fork in the road that seems to totter on the verge of self destructive behavior until I make better choices. I can say that today because that is the intent I have now. That is to make better choices and to move in a deliberate way.
When my journey is over I want to have a feeling of relief in my life that I have lived the way I wanted to. I have been a wonderful mother and a best friend to my daughter. An example to those that needed one. A giving humanitarian who may or may not have had gobs of money to spare to those in need, but when the time came I gave my time, my energy and my self when I had nothing else to give because maybe one person could relate to me and I could help make thier journey a little bit more bearable when times weren't so easy. An educator, a caregiver, a success, and if it is possible a loving wife.
I live for today. I cannot correct the mistakes of my past, but I can be a better person today than i was yesterday and aim to be even better tomorrow. Isnt that what life is about? My belief is that it is about making the necessary changes to creating the best possible experience for yourself, because if you don't believe in yourself who else will? And I believe in me!